I have a very hard time trusting people and expressing my feelings towards them. I like to shut down and cut people off before we get too close. I have these walls built up where I don't want to trust ANYONE and I'm always on my guard. Because of this, sometimes my relationship with God will suffer because I choose to treat Him just like I treat everyone else. I will be afraid to trust God, or express my true feelings to Him. I am afraid to tell God the things that He already knows. How deep is that? I have to work on it.
I wrote a post a while ago about how we should all trust God and allow Him in our hearts. I'm pretty sure I wrote every positive thing I could think of, in hopes of getting myself and hopefully others to finally trust God. I now fully understand why we need to trust God. It is in my lowest moments I need someone to lean on. I need someone to talk to who understands me. Sometimes you need it too. We all do. Everyone wants one person who just really understands what they are going through, and will be there for them through it all. We all want a person who will accept us, "Flaws and All," like Beyonce says. But you know what our biggest mistake is? We are looking for that special someone in another human being. We fail to realize that the One we need has been there for us since the beginning of time! He created us. He knows us in and out. He knows your insecurities, your biggest fears, He knows what you consider to be your flaws. The thing that should blow your mind is that God is still there after knowing all of that! Think of the most reliable person you know. It could be your spouse or significant other, a best friend, a relative, anyone! Think of that person. This is the person you've told things you would never tell anyone else. You feel as if you can really trust that person, right? They accept you and love you. They never left, even after you told them what you consider to be the worst things about yourself. God loves you more than that person. Yes, I know it's shocking right?! How can a God who despises sin sooo much, still accept you back after you intentionally repeat the same sins over and over again? Why would He do that? He does it because of the same reason that same reliable person you thought of does. It's called unconditional love. I think people don't understand how serious unconditional love is. The definition of unconditional is to not be limited by conditions; absolute. That means that God loves you beyond all the horrible things you think or do! God loves you from head to toe, inside and out. He knows your true feelings, so why not open up to Him? Don't be afraid to become intimate with God. I think I have written about that too. Get close and personal with God. Treat this like a real relationship. Fall in love with Him. Allow yourself to trust Him. God is not man, no matter how hard we try to compare Him to man. Get to know Him, you will truly love Him! He most certainly does love you. So this week, I challenge you to really dig deep in God's word. Read about His love for you, and talk to Him. God loves for His children to talk to Him. Open up. You don't have to spend thousands on a person to have them listen to you talk. You have the greatest therapist in the world for FREE! Take advantage of the opportunity. That's my challenge, and I pray that you were blessed while reading this. Be on the lookout for the next post, I'll be writing about the fear of God! I've been doing this study in Proverbs, and it's amazing how many times the fear of the Lord is mentioned! Good stuff. Until next time, Peace Love, and Truth! :)
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts,God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
-Psalm 139:13-18
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? - Romans 8:35
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. - Romans 8:37-39
